Reflective Essay

The Worst Year of My Life!

                My parents taught me to be the best in my class. I was tramautized to be the best and now everytime I look at homework I feel anger. I like to be at school and homework is only to better educate, but I do not like to remember when I was so unhappy. I was such a smart little girl growing up, but pressure made burst just like a balloon. I felt steam blowing out of my head everytime I got a bad gradeand now I feel nothing. I am tired of feeling a weight on my back especially when my parents used to make me study late nights. I would hide my madness so that they would not torture me any longer. I love my parents like any adolescent, but receiving pressure at a young age is not easy. After a while, I tried to hide myself by acting joyful and full of life. That only worsened my depression and pretty soon everything worsen. It was like one day I woke up in a whole new body and I forget how to feel. I was in such pain I had become immune to it just like a virus.


 Until I started to forgive everyone that was hurting me. little by little. I like to think about my future and not about what worried me. I was obsessed with being the best and having the perfect grades honor roll. I realize that the reason why I have anger towards homework is because it made me so unhappy in the past. Not the unhappy because I am lazy, but the unhappy of an obsessed perfectionist.I was tired of being the perfect student and my self esteem showed it. That will all change when I start doing my work for myself and for my own education. Not for anyone who pressures me into being perfect. No one is perfect and I am living evidence